Hello, Love!

Peace and Ease is what we all yearn for, is what we work our hardest towards.
Efforts and Initiatives are sown into breathing a soul into our Life.
Though it is easy to attain, sometimes it is otherwise to maintain.

Tonight alive, as I saw many whose relationship status has grown into a companionship.
One hoped to be for long as it is meant to be.
I am for one auspicious for mine to be headed towards longevity.

It is tough work rather to be in a courtship. In any relationship for that matter.
Commitment is never an option for some. For the longest time, I thought I had given up on Love.
Heartbreaks triumphed time and again, Tears drowned my sorrow countlessly, Devastation as post-Aftermath had become second Nature.

But to give up on me would mean to give up on Life.
and to give up on Life means to give up on God.
That, to me, has no space in my heart. Ever.

and so the pursuit of Happiness proceeds.

I still haven't gotten over the fact that some hearts had to be forcefully broken into the making of my relationship, though my heart is still bleeding over hopes to be reunited with those involved in the process might have been dashed way way long ago, I still have faith that with Time, all wounds should be healed. and Space too.

I am ,nevertheless, still fearful over these changes in my life.
Well, as they say, one day at a time,
one baby step per heart beat

MisguidedGhosts

I am going away for a while
But I'll be back don't try and follow me
'Cause I'll return as soon as possible
See I'm trying to find my place
And it might not be here where I feel safe
We all learn to make mistakes

And run from them, from them
With no direction
We'll run from them, from them
With no conviction

'Cause I'm just one of those ghosts
Traveling endlessly
Don't need no roads
In fact they follow me
And we just go in circles

Now I'm told that this is life
And pain is just a simple compromise
So we can get what we want out of it
Would someone care to classify
Our broken hearts and twisted minds
So I can find someone to rely on

And run to them, to them
Full speed ahead
Oh you are not useless
We are just

Misguided ghosts
Traveling endlessly
The ones we trusted the most
Pushed us far away

And there's no one road
We should not be the same
But I'm just a ghost
And still they echo me

They echo me in circles

TheBattlefield,

Hold me close and never let go?
I am cold and scared.
Insecurity is never an option, but such is Assurance.

We are now spread atop the Battlefield,
sometimes not necessary but is needed still
depended upon though independently standing
won’t there be a winner but two?
Victorious over the Triumph of mutual direction
So what shall the ultimatum be?

Detested is when Tempests and Trials,
Tripled by vicious Time attempting to shake our grounds,
Is there enough Ammunition to survive?
Are we destined to fade away?
Or last through it all?

What if our Fears breed Reality?

theDaggerToYourHeartEqualsThatToMine.

I wish my heart could ball up the courage to confront you, and that my brain would be logic enough to resolve the conflict; My mouth be willing to spit out the pain and my throat to swallow my lost pride.

I wish words weren’t cheap though my pride has no price tag,

I may be down but I am not defeated

I wish you would know that it takes two to tango and indeed with two left feet on, I could not dance to your rythm. Clearly you were intending for a tango of the unrequited but it turned out I was directing towards my waltz of indifference.

I could apologize for not being mutual, or rather amicably mutual.
But I wouldn’t for my heart knows what it wants, and is transfixed at its best.

Lie on a bed of nails, and dig your grave now soul,

Tragedy welcomes Misery,
and Drama applauds while giving way to Confusion ,
How I wish for a clean slate of understanding;
but then you came around and shook my world.

Truthfully your heart's desire is too much for me to contain

Everyone but all deserves their comfort,
of Love and Solace and Peace and Ease,
However long Time travels and Life transcends,
Still I have a feeling your Revenge has no end.

I am too weak to grant your will and needs,
I am in no favor of reversing your tears,
Regrets are starting to pour in;
But what am I to incur, damage has already set in?

All I have seen teaches me to trust the Creator for all I have not seen.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Soooo, ignorance is your bliss huh??

Can you be any more stupid and less sensitive than you already are??
WhatTheFuck, dude, I am trying to recover from this "heartbreak" and you're all over my face
looking and acting ignorant than I never knew you were? As if you weren't stupid enough, you acted like you knew it all.

Urgh!

Hey, FuckFace, get out of my life, will ya??

Fucking idiots are wasting my life!

I Should Go

I Should Go
by Good Old War

Kiss me, she said.
Don't let this moment pass you by.

You missed me, she said.
But I only closed my eyes for a second.

Let's forget about tonight,
and think tomorrow.
I can only think of one reason why I should go but,
I should go.

Don't leave, she said.
It seems she can't make up her mind.

Let's forget about tonight,
and think tomorrow.
I can only think of one reason why I should go but,
I should go

I'll see you tomorrow,
I'll see you tomorrow,
I'll see you tomorrow.

Tomorrow, Tomorrow

Tomorrow, Tomorrow
Will there be a Tomorrow?
Of pain and suffering and agony and misery.
Oh for that none but I can be sure,
Tomorrow may bring no pleasure.

Tomorrow, hey Tomorrow,
Look at what you have done,
For that smile and grin
Towards the dashed hope buried within

Oh come Tomorrow, look!
How you have brought upon your works of bountiful sorrow,
Hopes of yesterday are booked,
Now rejoice at the sight of inauspicious tomorrow!

Life and death celebrated.
⊠ Nausea
⊠ Loss and Increase of Appetite
⊠ Too much sleep
⊠ Recurring physical pain (headaches, back pain, fatigue, dizziness)
⊠ Diarrhea

All checked. All of those signifying symptoms of Depression.
So am I depressed?
What’s more,

According to http://www.emedicinehealth.com/slideshow_depression_overview/article_em.htm,

One of the warning signs includes talking about death or suicide. So, does that make me suicidal?

Does that mean I am soon to die?





I don’t find it strange that the irony of life has set in.
Just because I am fascinated by Death, does not make me a weirdo.
Nor am I a deeply distressed and depressed woman.
In fact, if I may share an arguably refreshing take on death, I figure the only way for some to value Life at its best is by understanding Death first and foremost.

Farewell world, Hello heaven~

Envy and Pride colors my days,

As prayers and thoughts tint my nights,

Promising Audacity comes knocking,

In the spot that you have left vacant

You were the bright light that paved the sun

You were the energy that wrung the fun

You embraced the thundering tempests others would gun

As we now welcome gratitude towards this affirmation

Dare to live. Dare to dream

Dare to depart together with your yearning

Get back up each time down comes in

Search for that inner happiness that lies within

I am going now, woe not for me, child.

For my time has come, I am gladly fine

I was a woman, a wife and a guardian

Soon you will be, such merriment you will find!

Smile and cheer as you conquer the universe

Leave an impact that everyone remembers

Love and educate those that surround us

Hurt no feelings , we all have our worth